A lessons.

When i look back in my life, i see pain mistakes and heart ache. But, when i look in the mirror, i see strength, learned lessons, and pride in myself. Fact, it always the wrong person gives you the right lesson in life. Things don't always go according to plan and people are unpredictable. Remaining the flexible relieves stress and gives you the upper hand. The less rigid you are, the better you're able to handle situations thrown your way. And i believe, God always has something for us, a light for every shadow, a relief for every sorrow and a plan for every tomorrow. I never blame anyone in my life, good people give you happiness, bad people give you experiences, worst people give you a lesson and best people give you memories.

Doubt

Sorry isn't a way to erase my doubt on you. From what you did last month, it takes time to heal back my wound. Scars, blood and tears, you never appreciate a single drop of it. I love you and I trust on you, but not like before. Maybe it goes down to 50% - 70% of trust. I wonder how you can be so damn happy with others while we were fighting at that moment. I forgave you for that shit but I won't forget it. I don't want to care about you so much like I did before because one day it will hurt me that much. People says, the less you care, the happier you will be. I really wish our relationship will end with death but at this time, could it be huh ? I wonder. I put so much hope on you, marry you, be a mother to your son, maybe it was my fault for being too matured to think about our future but a serious relationship needs maturity. I know you will not read this shit and if you read it, just by one eye open and a couple of minutes later, you will forget what I'm posting right now. Seems like you don't so much care about me. And yeah, me too. Oh..true love, so hard.